While I love being at home with Amalie - sometimes I feel like I am not even me anymore.
Where did Angela go? Has she been gone so long she wont ever come back?
I don't even really know who Angela is anymore.
I know who I would like her to be but that seems so far off.
At times, the kids drive me nuts, like seriously I feel like my head will explode. And other times I miss them so much when they are gone. Crazy woman.
I love ALL that we went through to "get" our darling children. Sure I don't have the pregnancy stories or can relate to the pain of child birth but we still had pain.
I worry what they will be like when they grow up...will Amalie really search for her birth father? We don't even know where to start looking for him if she did. Will she believe us and Erin that he wasn't a nice man, that he was trouble and she wouldnt have been safe with him.
Will Oliver want to reconnect with Sarah and James. What are they like now? They were so young when we met them.
who knows...I guess time will tell.
Gosh they have changed so much in those two photos. Amalies eye is CRAZY in the top one!!
1 comments:
Beautiful little ones. It's amazing the range of emotions you go through in being a mom. You're right...I've been there too in terms of losing who I was and then having to rediscover who I am again. I'm learning to really love who I've become. I've put away a lot of my polished clothes and have traded them for denim jeans and comfortable tops...and a cute boot when I need to dress up the denim (smile).
I'm going to enjoy discovering your blog. Thanks for visiting mine.
Take care,
Michelle
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